What To Do When You Finally Become Officially Estranged From Family
What to do when you’ve tried to do everything
“I don’t want to talk to or see you again; I can’t go through this all over again. I love you bye.”
I listen to these words and don’t say anything. I wasn’t expected to say anything when my mother launched the attack on me. She tells me I was constantly arguing with her (to which no, I choose silence so that she can win and communicate more than I do), and I had so much anger and hatred in my heart toward her and my father.
I informed her I didn’t; if anything, it was the opposite of her guilt-ridden words.
I love my family so much that I allow them to hurt me in all the ways that can be possible. Physically, when I was a kid and younger, mentally and emotionally, I forgave, I tried to repair us, I tried to talk about it. Still, when I did, suddenly, my mother was the victim, and I am the most terrible, cruel, inconsiderate child ever born.
There’s a certain feeling of “well, it was a long time coming for this.”
Maybe she’ll hold to her word and never speak to me again. I wouldn’t put it past her.
